Why it matters

Hellloooooo, welcome to my healing journey. This will be a journey between you and I where I open myself up to you in hopes that something I reveal about myself will help you know that you are not alone, you will not feel like this forever, and WE can get through this together. I was never a happy person, I never felt like I fit in I never felt like I was one of the pretty girls, I never liked my hair, my body, my skin, I just was a very miserable person because I never loved me. Being sexually abused by my older half -brother at age 8 and never telling my parents until age 22 really did a number on my identity, my personality, and how I viewed myself. Having a mother that I didn't get along with very well also didn't help. I buried my emotions, ran from my pain, and had absolutely no self-worth, self- respect, or self-love. This affected everything in my life. How I walked into a room, the type of activities I participated in, the type of friends I had, the type of men I attracted and entertained. It affected EVERYTHING and for a long time I was living a life below the standard God had for me. I turned to weed, alcohol, random sex, toxic relationships and anything else I thought would make me feel better but nothing worked. I had to face myself and finally I realized nothing was going to get better until I decided to sit down and heal.

Healing is continuous. You're never done, you're always learning about yourself, you're always growing, evolving, becoming aware of new holes in yourself. So, this is me inviting you to come along on the journey with me, learn from my mistakes, face yourself, build the person you've always dreamed of because you can. Change is inevitable, and you can never leave yourself so why not sit with yourself? Get to know yourself, heal yourself so you can change for the better? It won't be easy, there will be days where you want to give up, you will relapse, you will have questions for God, it will get ugly but that's okay, trust me I get it. But I promise it's way better when you're not alone, so let's heal together. I promise it'll be worth it.